MY FAITH, BELIEF & LEARNING PROCESS
I have observed that very often people revere, hate,
fear or even defend something only on the basis of faith and belief. They
simply have no idea or have no knowledge about what they are professing. I used
to be one among such type of people who was confident enough of his own
ideological knowledge and was ready to die for it.
I have been inculcated since childhood that Islam was
the best religion but Sufism has distorted it and it is the number one enemy of
Islam. At that time I did not know anything about Sufism even then I hated it
tremendously due to my wrong indoctrination since childhood. My hate for Sufism
became stronger when I looked at its followers. I found majority of them were
grave worshippers, revering saints and believing in miracles with no
fundamental knowledge of the book Quran. Those beneath the tomb may have been
great personalities but worshipping those dead rather than understanding their
message was unacceptable to me. I found very late that actually it is Wahabi
Islam’s violent ideology of intolerance that is the number one enemy of today's
Islam.
I was very fortunate enough to be taught in the early childhood
not to follow anything blindly and never ever reject anything without studying
it properly. This small piece of advice helped me a lot in developing my
present thoughts.
Let me also tell you all that I am a severe critic of
Sunni / Shi'a / Salafi and current Sufi version of Islam. A food critic is one
who love food and can do critical analysis on it. A movie critic is one who
loves movies and understands the minute details of film making. Some people
call me anti Islam or Islam critic, I want to inform them that I don't hate
Muslims, Islam or any human beings on the basis of what they believe, eat or
how they live or pray. I don't criticize the real philosophy of Islam or the
Quran. I severely criticize the translations and the exegesis of the book Quran
which brought bad name to the wonderful philosophy related to inner peace (ISLAM)
but foolishly propagated as religion of Arabia or Semitic Prophets.
Having said that I must openly confess that whatever
Islamic knowledge I have is only because of traditional Islam or other
philosophies of the world that I initially hated the most. The transformation
happened in me only because I continuously kept my mind open to learning. I did
not confine myself to any philosophies or school of thoughts nevertheless
sincerely made an effort to understand them, in spite of not agreeing with
them.
I became bold by roughly reading the exegesis of the
book Quran by Allama Ghulam Ahmed Parvez, Dr. Shabbir Ahmed and a more upgraded
version of them was by Dr. Qamaruzaman. These unconventional versions of
translation of Quran emboldened me in explaining my thesis of the book Quran
more courageously because like their version my perspective too about the
message of the book was unconventional and against the beliefs of the majority
of the Muslims.
Initially I was impressed by the rhetoric of some
articles written by these unconventional scholars of Islam but when I
thoroughly verified it they miserably failed the vocabulary, grammar and common
sense test. I respect them all especially Allama Ghulam Ahmed Parvez and Dr.
Qamarzaman. They all are respected Quran alone followers and expert grammarians
but we must not forget that they were all humans. I respect their method of
research to understand the book nevertheless they very clearly said that they
are not the final word. But unfortunately their followers made their research
work as ultimate document and when anybody questions their research those who
advocate them easily get irritated and began either to label you to some
particular sects or ridicule your understanding in order to defend their own
limited understanding. I can understand their situation as it is not their
original thought and the original scholars have departed this world. Note
leaving one’s ideology and joining or influenced by other ideologies without
verifying it by own efforts is not called research at all but proselytization.
My intention is not to belittle anybody's lifelong research
and hard work. I even respect the traditional translators because it is the
base from where I learnt and gradually grew up. But I cannot follow / tolerate
or keep quite to anything which does not make sense to me. I myself am open to
learning and criticism of my thoughts related to Quranic interpretation.
Note common sense is not common. Most of us don't use
it. Getting attracted to any translations or exegesis which appeals our needs
or circumstances is natural and easy. To become an admirer or an advocate or
debater on behalf of that translation or exegesis does not require any
qualifications or expertise. The job of verification is tough and the problem
with fans / admirers is that they don’t verify because their understanding is
based on faith in their mentors and scholars.
When one is in a mutual admiration club it is very
difficult to come out of it. Doubting the beliefs of the group or the club
rules means you are out of the group. This is the bitter truth of self
proclaimed research groups; only yes men are allowed in such groups. Doubting
is the first step of learning and seeking knowledge. When we are in the
state of admiration / awe we lose the important mental faculty of Criterion /
Reasoning and Tolerance. The advocators of all ideologies usually develop
the tool of debating / arguing and intolerance because their main purpose now
is to defend and spread their “sacred ideologies” of their respective scholars
rather than understand the others point of view or develop their own mind. Once
the ideologies become holy in the eyes of their followers they become
infallible and absolete for new developments.